No Such Thing As Backwards

Dear one, there will continue to be challenging days, and the challenges now are a bit different. Before you were so mired in your creations and the havoc they were wreaking, the emotion they wrought, the smallness and powerlessness you felt, that that was the order of the day. Everyday was a compilation of years and years of that, treading the same grooves in different names to achieve the world’s version of success. And American success at that. So vague, so external, so fleeting and so wrought with dependency on external validation. Yet this was the standard. This was the high water mark, the red line at the top of the chart. So you had an aim and everything that fell “short” of that, whether in your eyes or others or both, was seen as having not reached the top, which was of course an impossible task because there really never was a top and you could never really reach it. Ok, so you realize all of this, and it’s been a slow readjustment phase of recalibrating your aims; who they are for and what they mean to you, and releasing the filters on what you can do because it must be ok with everyone else, society, etc; the anonymous or external “They”. And now what? You see so much more clearly. Your aim is love in its purest form, to open your hearts and be kind to yourselves. To walk this path no matter how challenging and counter intuitive it feels at first to what you’ve always known to be true, yet this resonates so much more. So you walk and walk (and that walk is internal and you don’t actually go anywhere at all, it is all an inward journey) yet there are no markers. It seems all of the signposts are for the other way of doing things. No one can help you. You are truly walking this path alone. You encounter others on your walk who share your vision but they are not always going the same direction and if so, not for long, because now the directions are not just linear but quantum and time is spiraled and things come and go, appear and disappear just as quickly. Your heart is your marker. It will show you the way. Community is wonderful. You do not need to be a hermit. But no one, and we mean no one, can tell you which way to go anymore. Their way is their way and your way is yours. Trust your inner compass. And the more you look to it for guidance the stronger and brighter it becomes. And please do not worry about “set backs” or old triggers. Things are releasing in ways you cannot understand. Trust that all growth accumulates and you cannot move (love) “backwards” even if you tried. You are a vessel of love and that channel for loves grows stronger as you do. We love you so much. The disconnect now between old and new is challenging. We see this. Trust your heart to be the bridge that carries you across unknown waters. With all of our love on this emotional day. 911. Namaste.